#Heartblog // Remember

"Remember when I left you because you treated me dissrespectfully and I would never pick up your calls no matter how many times you tried to reach me..not because I wasnt dying to talk to you, because I had too much pride. I wore your hoodie for months without taking it off and always talked about the sea because I was convinced if I was on a shore you were at the other end somewhere and the sea is universal and connects everyone. I was extremely skinny and sleep wasnt in my vocabulary. I was never sober and always talking about the sea, Steven Jenkins and the color blue. Everyone would always tell me to shut up and instead of picking up the phone I would read your horoscope or go to palm readers. Then over time the color blue eventually faded. It got too warm to wear your hoodie. There was nothing left to say about Steven Jenkins and I stopped going to the ocean.

and thats where the story ended."

 

This is one of my favorite quotes of all time. At some point in my life I saved this in my journal, and it's always stuck with me. I think the best friend we have in life is time. I am someone who feels everything so HARD, so LONG and with so much obsession. I've had to learn to calm down, take a step back and sleep on my overzealous reactive thoughts. I know sometimes that it feels like those feelings of disappointment, or heartbreak or trouble won't ever go away, but they do. Time helps everything. I can recall four thousand times I have been convinced the world was ending, and it never does. So, hang on to your hearts, be gentle with yourself and know that you won't always feel like this. Your story of heartbreak will end someday, too. 

 

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